Day By Day

Sorry it has been so long since the last post. Addison is doing better. She has started asking to go to school and play with the kids. Last summer she went to daycare for 15 hours a week but she only lasted about 6 weeks. She would cry and throw up and well I just couldn't take it! She would come home in a different outfit from vomiting and I felt like we were paying and she wasn't even there. Since she keeps asking we have decided to try it again. She will just go from 7-12 and it is across the street from where Tre' works so he will drop her off and bring her home on his lunch break. I am not going to lie, I need some mommy time. I still have gift cards from my birthday last May that I haven't been able to use. I need to start taking care of myself again. She starts back next Wednesday.
I was feeding her grits yesterday for breakfast and she all of the sudden said I am going to puke and she did. It wasn't a huge amount of vomit but I still don't know why it happened. I feel so sorry for her because she just acts like nothing has happened when she does it. I know my stomach gets sore and it hurts so hers has to feel the same. That was her third time to vomit since surgery 3 1/2 weeks ago.
She is talking about the tubes and cutting her belly less and less each day. Today we went to get the oil changed in Tre's truck and she got scared. She was saying things like: They not going to check me, its not going to hurt, no more ouchies mommy. And she didn't even leave her car seat, she was just scared because we were some where different. She is still waking up during the night. But that has always been her routine. She isn't crying as bad and goes back to sleep faster. Her schedule is still messed up. She was awake until midnight last night and 11 the night before. Poor Tre! I have to work so he has to stay up with her and then get up during the night and be up at 6:30 for work. I am hoping daycare will wear her out and get her back to a normal sleeping pattern. Fingers crossed! She is still waking up during her naps too. It is the weirdest thing, it is like she doesn't know what she wants. She will ask for apple juice and then we give it to her and she screams she doesn't like apple juice and she wants chocolate milk. She is still not eatting a whole lot or even a lot. I have tried cutting her food into shapes, fixing her favorites, like corn on the cob she would normally eat two ears and now she only takes 1-2 bites and she is done. I needed to do some dishes and she wanted me to play with her. I handed her the barbies and said you play and I will be doing the dishes and she responded with "Play with me, chill mommy. Yes mam! Any excuse to put off the dishes for a few minutes.
As for me, I am feeling a little bit better too. I was upset because I expected people to react the way I would if the shoe was on the other foot. I just don't understand how they can't even ask how Addison is doing. And it isn't just friends, it is family too. I know for a fact they know what is going on. I read a quote a few days ago about God putting people in our lives for a reason or a season. I guess the people I was hurt by are just meant to be "seasonal" friends. I have heard from lots of friends from high shcool that I have not seen in over 12 years (yes I am getting that old!). They have even bought shirts and sold them to their co workers. My mother in law had her hair cut today and the beautician didn't charge her, and told her to put it towards Addison's orthotics. She doesn't even know us! I even had an exboyfriend doante but peole I see everyday don't even comment on her. I am moving on, I am not letting others bring me down anymore. I would love to say what goes around comes around but knowing me I would be there to help them anyways. I guess I inherited the nice trait from my mom. Those of you that know her know exactly what I mean.
I just deposited almost $600 from my mom's classmates from Biloxi High School. They had a superbowl party and raised money for Addie. Now I can pay off the surgery center that is always so rude to me. I have started receiving notices from our insurance company but no bills yet. I know, they are on their way! Addison of course met her $750 deductible and her $3000 out of pocket while she was in the hospital. My goal is to mainly pay off the doctors, pay for her inserts and orthotics and just owe the recent hospital and the one she was born and spent 5 weeks in the NICU. Of course I would love to pay them off too, but as long as we can shrink the amout we are sending out monthly that is a huge help.
We have set the date of March 24th for the yard sale to benefit Addison and Evan. Please contact me if you have anything to donate. My email is southerngal05@cableone.net. I am also placing another order for the tshirts on Friday if you missed out on the last order. I can't wait to get them in and start seeing purple every where. Addison also has a team walking for the March of Dimes in Diberville on April 28th. You can join her team or make a donation to the March of Dimes at my website http://www.marchforbabies.org/JrgautreauAs always thank you for your continued support and prayers.